Я родился!

"I did not like to be pregnant. Already at the first child not really and at the second even less ". Such statements are not often heard from mothers, shame is far too great. I talked to a psychologist and asked her why this topic is so taboo and if such mothers are the exception. In all magazines and media pregnancy is presented as the most beautiful and fulfilling experience ever. 9 months of self-discovery and symbiosis with the child growing up in the abdomen. Sure, there is the "morning" nausea...

Sometimes stomach feeding and laminating just do not help anymore. The belly stays. And the reason this time is totally crazy and crazy and just a little miracle: Baby No. 3 is on the way! And it's actually a miracle because we did not really expect it, because first of all, I turned 40 this year and second, we already have two cute boys. Although we always thought: "Actually, there is still one missing!" But I did not notice at first that I was pregnant. I was with my chiropractor and naturopath...

While I sit here and actually want to write about how much I enjoy being pregnant, I see the pictures of Aleppo on Facebook. Children who are in ruins, dead children, dead babies, crying women, crying men, screaming fathers. It just is not enduring. I have to cry and wonder if I'm oversensitive because I'm pregnant. No, it's just f..cking terrible. And it paralyzes because here in safe Germany you have the feeling that you can not do anything. The mother of Gustav's classmate Hanna goes to Aleppo on foot, 3,000 km, to prove to the world that something can be done...

When I packed my clinic bag 2.5 years ago, I was very nervous. I googled a lot and asked my girlfriends what I should definitely pack with, but nowhere is written. I collected "insider tips". My midwife also gave me some advice or even a complete list of things to take to the hospital. So I started a few weeks before because it was my first pregnancy and I wanted to be prepared. I like it when some of my head lists can be worked off. And besides, I had the feeling that my daughter would rather be on her way...

I am now in the twentieth week of pregnancy and so slowly we start writing lists of names. Did you do that too? We wish every child. One with the boy's name and one with maiden name. And of course, I look in the first name lists. What are the popular first names? Do I want that at all? Or do I want an extraordinary name for my child? It is difficult. Especially the third child. And in Berlin? What did it look like in 2016? Was there a difference to the year before? I once compared. For the girls, Hannah was definitely driven from first to fourth place...