Nadia could not love her husband, though he surrounded her with attention and care, loved her and was proud of her. But the choice was made, and if he was wrong, she had no one to blame but herself. She did not leave two or three months after the wedding, especially since she had become pregnant by that time.
In due time, Nadia gave birth to her daughter, and the pleasant worries of motherhood temporarily delayed all the problems of not very happy family life. And then the usual life of the average Soviet family, with its daily life and little joys, flowed. The daughter grew up, her husband grew up in ranks and positions. She no longer worked in the library, she was noticed as an initiative, bright girl, and now she was raising culture in the area, being an employee of the Youth Palace.
Life settled and entered some familiar shores, but Nadia was getting duller and duller. She realized long ago that just being loved is not happiness and, not even half of happiness, wanted to love herself. And family life began to seem to her more and more like a prison with a life sentence. This couldn't help but affect her family relations, and there was a rift between Nadia and Sergei. As it turned out, one love for two was not enough.
More and more often she remembered Volodya, the memory of her lost love lived in her heart. Nadia thought for a long time and came to the conclusion that it could not go on like this, it is necessary to divorce, why torture each other. It was terrible to be alone with the child, it was a pity for my daughter (she loved her father), and the opinion of others also bothered her. After all, there seemed to be no visible reasons for divorce, a strong, seemingly loving family, a loving husband - what else she needed to say, people could say. But she could not live like this anymore.
The divorce took place, Nadia and her daughter went home, closer to her parents, to one of the district centers of the region. Soon she entered the institute for correspondence department, the specialty in which she worked. Work and study, busy schedule of life helped to forget the past. To think about the failed family life, to indulge in despondency was just not time. Hope graduated with honors and gradually began to successfully move up the career ladder.
She did not have the energy, mind and business acumen to occupy her, and her hard work and demanding attitude amazed her colleagues. Perhaps in this way, she tried to fill the void that was in her heart. There is no happiness in her personal life, let there be professional success. But, unfortunately, one thing does not replace the other. To be happy, a person needs not only success in the profession, but also love. And especially a young, blooming woman. Of course, men have happened in her life, life takes its course, and she did not give a monastic vow.
But somehow everything didn't work out, it didn't work out in a serious relationship. She didn't want to bind her life to someone without love, but she couldn't love her again. But in spite of such a mental disarray, Nadezhda built her career successfully. Over time, she took an enviable position in the government of the region. The daughter grew up, married very young and now lived separately.
Life has taken place, and happiness hasn't happened.
More and more often she returned to her youth with her thoughts, which was so carefree and happy, remembered Volodya. However, she never forgot him, how to forget the first love? Over time, the bitterness of his betrayal somehow subsided, became not so acute. She so wanted to know something about him. What about him, where he is now, how did he live his life without her? And if he is alive, though not at war, in military service there are all sorts of things.
She looked for him on the Odnoklassniki website and found him very quickly. I didn't dare to write to him for a long time, and maybe he won't remember it.
It was a love for her that she hadn't forgotten all her life. And for him - who knows, it's been so many years...
I've given up all the thinking, and I've written it in my head. He answered unexpectedly quickly and offered to meet him. It turns out that he had lived in the regional center for a long time, as well as she did.
Nadezhda went to the meeting and thought that it was like a meeting with a passed youth, and no plans, of course, did not make any plans. Let's sit down, talk, she thought, he will tell about himself, I too, let's remember his youth. But it wasn't like she thought it would be.
When they met, it was as if time had turned back.
They felt like they hadn't had those long years apart, they just broke up yesterday and met today. Again, Nadezhda felt like a young girl and saw a young cadet in front of her. Of course, Volodya has changed, so many years have passed, but love has its special look. And the first words that he said: "You've become even more beautiful" - they let her know that he hadn't forgotten anything.
Continued in 3 parts.