What is the purpose of a blog? To share something with the world? To share some feelings, some thoughts? To structure them for your own sake? In hopes it would change something - if not for yourself, then maybe just for someone else? Or is it just a waste of efforts?
It's always hard to process your inner world. To process your dark thoughts you don't want to see. Fiction can be a way of doing it - for both: the authors, and the audience. It was definitely the case for the works like "Evangelion", probably also for the "Crime and Punishment". Is it the case for "One Piece"? Who knows. But, as usual, it doesn't really matter. When a literary work is so good at showing emotions, emotional arcs, it inevitably finds some "right" targets who are struck into the core of their hearts.
// Why am I writing in English? Don't know, it's just easier to write this way about the emotional stuff.
Can a literary work bring emotional healing? or trigger or ensure the process of it? For some it definitely can. For others - it's too late. Sometimes you used to feel that you don't deserve... anything, and others are just using it. Is it narcissism? or just a 'normal' way to structure the society? It looks so simple, when you put it into words like that. But it's not fucking simple at all to get to such formula. To stick to it if you used to doubt your (emotional) conclusions, especially the conclusions about yourself. Is it also the core of control? An emotional variant of it.
Doubts, shame, hesitation based on them - is it a normal way for (the current?) society to function? Sometimes people just don't help, but sometimes they're actively against someone to feel otherwise. Sometimes the shame and all the other related stuff is actively induced. A permanent kind of relationship, a permanent 'mark' maybe. And so we have: biases, racism, bullying, etc. Shouldn't people be doing something against it instead, in that case (instead of 'using' it)?
Is it the answer I was looking for? Maybe? So, this is it. Found it. But it's just a hypothesis, as usual. One more to the stack of them. But, also as usual, it does feel 'right' when I'm writing it - so, maybe there's something to it.
Does being able to feel what you were missing make any good to a... traumatized person? Does seeing someone similar (even just a fictional character, or... or whatever) finally conquering the same (or nearly the same) trauma... Does it at least make it 'smoother', as I put it once? Well, I don't know the exact reasoning, the exact explanation, but "One Piece" did provide me with such an experience. So - 'smoother' it is.
"One Piece" is all about that, about traumatization by rejection. But one particular character had always had my fullest attention, when watching the series. So, have it finally paid out? Maybe. As usual - maybe. I can't say I understand emotions, especially the emotions of my own. I spent years trying to analyze them (both mine and the ones of the other people). But I never sure - it's always "maybe's". Ok, got too personal, stopping it.
So, was it a good (or even the best) way for the end of it? Who knows. That was the choice. Again, I'm not sure how, but if it helps someone else, then maybe it was at least 'good'.