You know... regardless of how well in position you are-in health, career, or in life, fear creeps up on you. Sometimes in self-boubt, anxiety, confusion, displacment. However, it pleases to present itself to you and make you feel hopeless. It is the conjunction of thoughts and opinions that sing the same old song to you each night; and it works. I ask, "Is it better to live ignorant of your fears?" Having no accountability to the pressures or consequences that fear brings. Sounds blissful before the storm. "But, is it worse to live in consciousness of your fear and allow excuses and irrationality to dismiss facing it?" And afterwards feel shame, and call yourself coward in a load of self-pity. Hopelessness kicking in once more. I can't do it. I can't. You can't convince me and I will bear the regret of this choice in soon time. But at the same time... I desire the success that will come if I bypass the fear. Crave it, almost. The chance to live the fantasies of my success, I ke