To have feelings, or not to have?

All feelings have the right to exist, and you have the right to feel whatever you want. Don't blame yourself for experiencing certain emotions.

You love a person who has gone a long time ago, but you still can't let him go; or you feel the need in love, for tactile sensations, care and tenderness; you feel an overwhelming sadness and melancholy; or you are overcame by apathy and nothing arouses interest anymore. All these feelings are priceless and carry a certain energy and meaning. You can deny that you have never been envious, were not angry, did not suffer because of little things, but you can not run away from yourself. And what for? Trying to hide your feelings deep inside actually never made anyone feels better.

"Nothing — neither words, nor thoughts, nor even our actions express so clearly and truly ourselves and our attitude to the world as our feelings: in them you can hear the character of not a separate thought, not a separate decision, but the entire content of our soul and its structure" - Konstantin Ushinsky.

Recently I have admitted to myself that in order to be happy, I need another person, I need to feel being important, meaningful, and loved. However, for a long time I could not understand whether this is a psychological problem associated with a "sense of inferiority". In this case, you need to work with it, try to fix it. It means going against yourself.

In the end, I realized that all this is my nature; I need it as much as I need the air I breathe. Yes, that doesn't make me a better person. But everything I do makes me a better version of myself. This means that accepting all your emotions, feelings and needs allows you to open even more, to look deeper into yourself.

It is also normal to feel yourself lonely, like you are a flying creature in the universe. We are all alone by nature.

We all are living people, each of us has a soul and a heart

Isn't it in our nature to yield to irrational desires and make spontaneous decisions, influenced by our feelings? Look in the mirror, stand and take a good look at yourself. You will see how your chest rises and falls with each inhale and exhale, how the muscles of your face twitch involuntarily, how the muscles of your body work with each movement. And how at this time in the head interest in your own body, thoughts of self-love, or rejection and uncertainty arise - all this is normal. This only once again proves that you are alive. An alive person, with your own thoughts and feelings.

My friend told me: "If you need someone to feel loved and fulfilled, or if you don't need anyone - everything is determined by you, and it's all right. The only thing is, never regret anything. Don't regret what you once lost, what you never had, or what you could have. You are who you are."

Crying is normal. It's okay to laugh out loud. It's okay to be angry. It's normal to feel something tearing inside. To love someone who "can not" be loved also is normal. Not feeling anything is normal. You're all right. There is no problem with you.

Don't be too hard on yourself. We are just people.

If you have read text till the end, hope it makes your feel better. If not - that is also okay :) I would like to know, if this text brings you some relief or new thoughts. I would like to know, if things that I do actually help people. And if there only one of them, I will continue to do what I do.

With all love

Anna