POV Max
When it came to the stars, I decided to ask Nika what she associated them with, but the answer was simple. I don't understand... Girls usually have stars connected to romance, family gatherings, and then my companion gives me this! I decided to ask more, but the new answer shocked me even more... How so? No way! I do have good memories of it. I decided to answer:
- And I associate stars with... childhood and village.
The girl looked at me with her sad blue eyes but didn't answer anything. She was too busy with her thoughts right now. Now I've definitely overreacted! I shouldn't have gone that far, she didn't ask me that. I even felt guilty... I admit it... it was too much. I have this law: personal life is private life. According to this law, I communicated with everyone. So...it is necessary to translate the topic:
- And why were you almost late for duty?
The girl met and asked again:
- What? Sorry, I didn't hear.
- Why were you almost late for duty today?
Nika answered me:
- I came running from George. I wouldn't have been able to go to him sooner, because I'd learned something important recently. This is very serious! Good and Evil began to gather their armies! Already!
Already? So early? I don't understand anything:
- This is very bad. We are not ready yet...
This topic helped me at least somehow to get away from a difficult conversation for Nika. The girl continued:
- These magicians are thousands and thousands, and we are a pitiful bunch! It's not fair!
Yes...she's right, but it's not that simple:
- Our whole life is unfair!
- Yes... I understand... But it turns out that we have less chance of winning than they do. Numerical advantage always and everywhere helps a lot.
God, I had to have this conversation, but the girl thinks right:
- Yes, but this is not the most important guarantee of success. I need a friendly team and good preparation. Magicians do not like to share very much, and most of them have small knowledge and skills.
- Yes, but still it will be difficult...
- And nobody promised that it would be easy.
Then we went again in silence. Unexpectedly Nick asked a question:
- Do you miss home?
This question surprised me, but I decided to answer succinctly and without emotion:
- When we become defenders, we can't go home anymore, we shouldn't think about it.
The girl stopped and said:
- I know that, but how do parents feel when their children disappear? And how do we live on?
- When we disappear, all those who knew us lose their memories. They don't remember anything about us at all and will just live on without us...as if we never existed in our lives.
The girl was in shock:
- How so? It can't be...
- Maybe Nika, maybe... you just have to accept it and that's it...
But I didn't hear an answer, so we moved on. Silence...Nika says nothing. What is she thinking about now? Eh...this topic is very painful for all the defenders...and for me...but that's the price of this new life, which was chosen for us...it's hard to understand...it's very difficult...
POV Nika
After that conversation with Max, I didn't say anything else. I had enough new information to digest so far. All those who once knew us now don't remember...everybody...both parents and acquaintances...terribly... So! Stop! We have to get these thoughts out of our minds! We need to calm down! Eh... The guy is still silent, and I don't want to talk now. I just go and breathe in the cool night air. I got cold, but I don't pay attention to it... I just need to relax... although we are on duty. So many thoughts in my head. It's very hard to understand all this...very hard. I never felt as bad as I do now. And...maybe it's good that everyone will forget us and not suffer... Everything! Closed this topic! Eh... It's hard... This life will never be the same now...ever. I don't want to think about it now! Eh... Problems... When will this fence be over? Does our camp have such a large territory? Why so much space, if it is not used at all? One question... To be honest, I am tired of going. Max just keeps silent. Well, let it be! Isn't he tired? I want to rest. Eh...it became dangerous here. Is there really a safe place in the world? Honestly, I think there is no such place! It just doesn't exist! Everything is very complicated! The world will never be the same! I feel like we're about to have new problems. I can smell it! Eh...when it will be morning! I'm sick of this silent game! Again this idiot is acting like a woman! I'm sick of it! Damn it! The wind is blowing strong! It's cold! Shit! Shit! Shit! Shit! The guy turned around and looked in my direction, and then asked:
- Aren't you cold?
Honestly, that's a stupid question! Doesn't it all come down to him anyway? You idiot! I had to change the subject:
- And when will we pass?
Max stopped and answered:
- Soon we will finish our rounds. So you're not cold?
I'm sick of it! I'm sick of it! I'm pissed off! How quickly I moved away from that topic. Eh...I'll answer that, so be it:
- It will do, I won't die, don't even hope so!
That's how I'm going to be partners with this jerk now! I can't see his face all the time! Max got mad at my answers:
- I'm sick of you! I'm trying to make things right!
I just heard myself say:
- Have you decided to establish a relationship? Don't be ridiculous!
The guy got angry:
- Stop it! Now you're acting hysterical! Don't make tragedies here! Everyone here has sacrificed something! You're pissed off! You're also saying something about me here! Everything is so right, isn't it? No! You're just a jump-start! You won several times, so what? They pay too much attention to you! Undeservedly! You are not a defender anyway! Remember this already!
It's too much! You can't do that:
- Well, I'm sorry! But do not humiliate here! You know absolutely nothing!
The scandal was gaining momentum:
- Yes, you're right! I don't know anything at all!
Quiet! We need to calm down! I've never exploded like this before... This whole situation pissed me off. Quiet... quiet... we have to stop it... these problems came so suddenly... We have to say something to the guy now:
- Okay... That's it, the topic is closed! You can hate me even more now, but I've never blown up like this before... Everything... I'm sick of it!
And I went around it and went ahead. Let him do whatever he wants now! I'm sick of it! But we need to interact somehow because we have to be a team. Eh... Max caught up with me and said:
- Okay, but we need to be partners, although we don't want to be partners!
- It makes sense! Let's do this: we will be partners and that's all! I do not promise a good attitude! Eh...agreed?
- Okay, let's go already.
At last! We'll finish the duty soon! Yay! My legs are falling off already! Eh...but at least we managed to fix everything a little bit... Yeah... Well, when we are done! And when to sleep? To be honest, I don't want to, but I have to sit down, or I won't be able to do any good then. Oh, well, let's go...
