He knew about her weak health, but did not know about a newlywed in Edo. He knew that she had wanted happily to live the last time in extreme moments, but did not know that it will be to hunt on her newlywed, that appeared the same contraband that wanted to use a girl in the aims. He knew that Sogo would do everything, if they did not meet, but did not know what it all will make off.
And did not know that it will be so difficult on the soul, but a heart will break from breasts.
And he wanted just, that a girl that he loved was happy. He not for her. He is a samurai. For him indifference met with the soul heart of stone. He is rough, selfish and cruel. He killed and kills people, and can die any instant.
But nobody wanted, that she died.
And such pain that he did not know before came. And a heart broke from a littoral fortress. And it was desirable to fall on knees and howl, as though to the wolf - from despair, fear and pain. And on the soul it became so depressed, and lousily, and awfully, it however was no time before.
But he, as usual, skillfully hid it after the mask of indifference.
This mask did not get off from him even then, when in Sogo quite uprooted through death of favorite sister, and he went at him - Hidzikaty - and hammered barely not to death. And he did not even oppose him.
Deserved. Knew that deserved.
And here now he sits on cold earth, all in blood and in the middle of nowhere, smokes, looks at sullen gray sky that cruelly pours him an icy rain, and thinks that life, nevertheless, complete dung.
A coat remained somewhere there in place of beating, a leg - whether that broken, whether that dislocated - hurts hellishly, a right arm hangs weak-willed, and inwardly something aches so much, on face lantern under an eye, a lip and a nose is broken, and it already not speaking about the unbelievable amount of bruises and scratches that decorate every centimeter of body of literally.
Not such he wished for Mitsybu, quite not such. It goes out, he wanted as better, and it went out...
It is Hidzikata? That do you do here?
A dark man mowed eyes aside.
Otae stands alongside. In one hand holds a package with foods, in the second squeezes to ambrella, that hides her from a rain. A kind is surprised.
- Sit. Not evidently? - he answers in the usual coarse manner. - And where it here? - asks, and then a blood clot on earth. Alike, a few teeth are knocked out yet and...
- Near my.
- Hm... - and as him could here bring?
Some instant a brown-haired person is quiet and only looks at him. And then unexpectedly talks:
- told to me about it. I am very pitiful.
- Stopped up! - her fellow tears off sharply. That is she necessary? Why did stick to with the senseless pity? Why yet more does torment a heart? And why does not a that heart in any way want to be appeased? Presumably, will pass yet quite a bit time, before it again will be enchained in a deaf armor. This time - forever.
it is Toby necessary help. - does not displace attention on his rude words of Otae.
- I need, that you were unhooked from me. To me and so not bad.
- I do not think so.
- And me that you think.
Would say yet something, however to finish speaking to him not gives the heavy fist of girl that flies to him straight in a person, darkness comes but then.
Regained consciousness unexpectedly and sharply, as if someone cried to him on an ear. A sun lighted simply in a person. He was in a stranger house on stranger. Examined itself - almost all but already almost nothing hurts. Strange.
That does he do here?
- You regained consciousness in time. - somebody's voice was heard suddenly, and he saw Otae with a tray in hands. She suited and sat down alongside. - Now exactly dinner.
- nothing needs me. I gather and go. - wanted already to get up and go, but she held him, not giving to do it. Hidzikata glanced on her angrily. - Take away a hand, women.
- You will dine, because was at more than week. Kondo-san said in addition,, that if you will not obey me and come in Shunsengumi in such state, then he you will simply throw out from there, and Okita-san added, that this time exactly will nail you.
A dark man smiled mentally. And then narrowed eyes.
- Why did I welter here so long?
- I gave to you somnolent. Otherwise, you a long ago escaped from here, and all my efforts would be vain.
Nothing answered on it. Only began to search cigarettes and cigarette-lighter. But they for some reason were nowhere.
- will Dine - will get them. - Otae smiled, watching his searches.
it is Blackmailer. - Toshuro muttered, not less than attracting a tray those to itself. It is better to agree and deafen the piercing trills of stomach. And there it will be evidently.
- Why did you it do? - he asked after some time, delaying and finally filling lungs desirable nicotine.
- My father died, when I was small. I know that to lose such near man. - Otae answered, taking away an empty tray. - And that you there gathered to die of wounds, nothing gave you. Early to you yet to join Mitsybi-san.
- From where to know you? Maybe, exactly time?
- And to whom will it become more easily from it? To your friends hardly.
- I do not have friends.
- Wrong.
- Silent. I did not gather to follow by her. There are not foolish.
- Here and live farther. Only... Do not push away from itself people. you do this only worse.
- to Whom? I am a samurai. I am cold, cruel and selfish. I killed and kill people. In my life there can not be a place of love and to other happiness. I am doomed to loneliness, because in another case near people near me are doomed to suffering.
- have and do worse only to the soba. I am daughter of samurai, retain remember everything, that told us with a brother father. And such the fools I do not remember exactly. - Otae was tricked into on feet, holding a tray. - Live on all, and by the not past, but future. And other all stands only in your head and to you and it mixes to do. - for an instant she disappeared from a kind, leaving Toshiro on a lone person with own opinions.
So...