After forcing him to sign a divorce agreement, I took my son to Shanghai. It was lonely and sad, and no one could tell, but fortunately, I had a son. We didn't get a divorce, he didn't rush it, and I didn't say it. He didn't call once, he didn't send a text message, he didn't visit his son. In the past month, my heart is getting cold, but also more and more cool, so I called the woman's husband. You can say that I am mean, I have not let others too good, but I originally had a lot of pity for her husband. From their chat logs, I clearly see her husband bent on her good, she acted in two men more than six months, her husband actually knew nothing about. Of course, I didn't mean it very well, and I did wish she'd been tidied up. The phone calls, her husband did not believe, I said that you look at the chat history.
After that, her husband contacted me three times. For the first time, her husband said she faced hundreds of pages of chats with no shame, denied it, only admitted the affair, and said he rushed to divorce because he had an affair. He was surprised that the woman who had lived with him for two years was like this. The second time, when he filed for divorce, she was afraid, texting her father, asking her father to understand and move to love, to slow down the husband and then transfer the property, the results of this information wrongly sent to her husband, see this text message, the original contradiction or not to divorce man, immediately decided to give up the marriage. Her husband said that he would not care about any property and money, as long as the divorce as soon as possible. The third time, he texted a divorce, " give up a tree to get a forest, really thank you, really, because without you to inform, maybe I'm still happy in the nightmare."
Every day my mood ups and downs, tears can flow out at any time, also often inexplicably angry. I always remember how wonderful he was, and what he and she were like, especially when my son and I were in trouble in Shanghai. The most painful days, my sister came to me, she is a devout Buddhist, she not only brought me the care of relatives, more important is to bring the Buddhist philosophy. I began to read the Buddhist book, The mood slowly eased down, when the pain I would read the Buddha. I have to admit that I did not really have a Buddha in mind at the beginning and now, but it did calm me a lot. Life is still, I continue to read the book of Buddhism, my son continues to grow up happy, he continued to Moonlit side, the middle of nowhere.
2008 Spring Festival, I took my son back to my parents home in Qingdao new year alone. The parents were incredulous, and even though I explained he was busy, the parents couldn't believe it, that even if he was busy, he would at least have to make a phone call or at least talk to his children. If our marriage is broken, it should be a great blow to the parents, because we have visited each other's families since high school, we all know the root, parents very trust him, so I would rather let parents doubt, do not let the cruelty exposed. After the spring festival we left, my mother asked her sister, sister can not hide it said. The mother does not believe, insisted that such a thick emotional foundation, such a good child, such a good family, he can not so easily give up, he just went the wrong step, must be my fault for his unweave, he can not look back. Mother non-sister to accompany her to Suzhou to persuade. They were disappointed, they were delusional, and when they left, they told me that once he turned back, he would never say anything, even for the sake of the child.
I don't want him to go back. Ten years of affection, gradually growing up son, are not easily forgotten. However, in the past year and a half, he did not look back, so, when he still heard nothing, I decided to wait for his son to return to Qingdao for the summer vacation, and he went back to Beijing to do the formalities. But the plan did not change fast, at the end of April he offered to invite me and my son to go to Suzhou. This is the first time in over a year. I came to Suzhou with my son and hope, to a room with supplies for another woman. My son slept in the dark, he did not have what foreshadowed, and I told me to go to Suzhou to find a job, the Beijing house to sell, buy a home in Suzhou.
I was surprised, hesitated for a long time, asked: you in the middle of March also pressed me to do the day, now suddenly said this, I can not turn over a little. He asked rhetorically“ " Do you want me to give you an explanation?"I said, "have the best explanation".He said,” I just want to live my life."His understatement, let the dark tears I can not stop. At that moment, I no longer mind all the loneliness and grievance of the past year. I just want to forget the past and give my son a complete home.
The next three months were the happiest of my two years with my son. He would drive to Shanghai on weekends, and I would take my son on a train to Suzhou after work on Friday. He took us around Suzhou and we chatted as usual.
I had never asked him how he had been in the past year or half, nor had I inquired about her, and I tried to make myself the same as before. The couple's life has returned as if nothing had happened. But the woman is always sensitive, and my heart tells me that his turn seems to be only the responsibility, not the heart. For he would not call me at any time outside of the weekend; for he would never look me in the eye; for he would no longer kiss me and no longer touch me; for he was still impatient and tolerant towards his son; for he would no longer mention my work in Suzhou. Although I have so many feelings, but I think he is trying to look back, also seriously, I should give him enough patience, so in the meantime, I have not looked at his phone, maybe I want to really trust him in action, maybe I'm afraid to see the content I do not want to see. Anyway, I took three months to really relax.
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