I woke up from the fact that raindrops fell on me. I jumped up and quickly covered the sofa with oilcloth. Our equipment is under a canopy. True, I did not want to go home. It was very hard on my heart. I don’t know why, but I wanted to sob. I turned on the music. The rain was getting stronger. Soon he turned into a fierce rain, but this does not stop me. After all, dance is something inside. It is either there or it is not. If a person is able to love - this is enough, the rest will come by itself. Technique is what is attached, but it must be applied to something. (Eminem - Beautiful) You know right now I was scared, although I was alone, but it was scary, as if tiny discharges passed through my body.
From the roof there was a view of the road. I saw Stu, she saw me. I went to the edge and began to wave her hand. She began to cross the road with a smile, when suddenly it was not clear where the car left at great speed and with a whistle of brakes knocked her down. She flew 5 meters away. I screeched at the top of my lungs. And headlong ran to her. She lay on the curb still breathing, bleeding. I sat next to me. We both understood that the excuse of "everything will be fine," would be meaningless. I put her on my lap. She was still alive. We understood that this was the end.
- I love you Zee, I want you to be happy. Forgive me for everything, do not forget me. ”She whispered with a wheeze.
- I love you too. Try not to think about the pain, it will end soon.
She just smiling touched me with all her strength and said:
- Good night, Zee.
And as if I fell asleep, I tried not to cry, but the tears themselves poured from my eyes.
“Your life goes on,” she said, barely breathing, and died down. No wheezing or groans were heard, she remained lying on my lap with an innocent smile. I was ready to die with her! What a life. You know, at that moment I wanted to return Sasha! I wanted to feel him near, but he left, left my life, as well as Nastya. Where is the point of living, who needs me? Then the guys came. I seemed to have died with her. They called an ambulance, she was gone for a very long time, but Stu was still taken. I went out like a barely burning candle. From that moment I decided not to dance again, never!
A few days later the news came that she died from internal bleeding, the doctors said that it was a miracle that after such a blow she continued to live!
A month passed after the funeral. Late in the evening I walked along the street near the house. A friend of Sasha came up to me, I barely recognized him.
“This is for you, go home and read it, just at home.” He said, handing me a note.
I didn’t answer, I just took a note from him and went ... No, not home, to the roof. Sitting on the sofa, I unfolded a note:
"Hello dear, I miss you very much. I really want to see you what you have become. I couldn’t tell you then, but I’ll tell you now. The fact is that I have found aortic valve stenosis, a serious heart disease. I need there was a donor for transplantation, money was not a problem, you know my parents. The worst thing was that there was no donor. I had only a few days left. That’s why I got drunk that night and I wanted to know you before death. When I entered your room I said: "I'm sorry, I will no longer be there." When you hit me, my whole life collapsed, and I left. I was no longer afraid of death, on the contrary, I was ready for it, I was waiting for her! It is better to die in the unknown than torment you! But fortunately I found a donor, now I am healthy as a bull “I’m studying at the institute at the law faculty. And I dream to see you. Let's meet with you tomorrow at 18:00 right near your entrance.
Your Sasha. "
I rolled into tears and began to remember that time ... What a fool I was, I had to listen to that mumble! If I knew, I would agree!
Entering the apartment with me, as if removed sunglasses. Oh my god, yes there lives a slut and a bum. I was cleaning, despite such a late time. The night did not sleep. Nothing decent was out of clothes ... I had to wear what was.