Hi All,
My nick here is Shady Lady and this is my personal blog which I will use to sort out my life. I would say I need a dairy to fix my thoughts and estimate how far I am from my goals.
Yes, I have a lot of goals and for many years I'd been sure I was moving into right direction. I spent many years to get a good education and then a lot of endless days and nights at work that I didn't like. I opened my soul to men who didn't love me and every time it took me so long to recover after unhappy relationship. That is a separate story.
One day I realized that I want my life to be different. I remember the questions popping up in my head:
- How many happy days did I have during last 3 months?
- Are the things that I'm busy with really important?
- Do I have any recognition at work? Does my work fulfill my ambitions?
- Why, why do I always start toxic relationship?
- Do I really listen to my mind and body?
- Why do my thoughts produce more pessimistic emotions than optimistic ones?
And finally
Is it really the way to my goals?
I asked myself all those questions around 2 years ago. After full analysis I had to conclude that I was not really happy. I was stuck to the conservative principles, I was "living a standard", and as a result I was getting more and more narrow-minded. I was closed to the world blocking positive changes in my life, and with that approach I had no chance to live a truly happy life. I was wasting my lifetime.
Lifetime - the highest cost that you pay for your poor mindset. I didn't want to pay much.
I started my journey to change my mindset.
I should say I'm proud with what I've done since that time. I have changed my position at work, I am very positive and energetic, I enjoy my life.
And every word that will be written further is not a showboat or any attempt to teach other people how to live.
This is only my journey and the purpose is to keep myself moving into right direction and reduce cost of poor mindset.